Finally, i have my own personal blog. I've been hesitating on making my own one for several reasons. For one, i didn't know how to make a blog. lol so i got my best friends clarisse & phia to make me one. And i'm picky, so i'm glad they put up with me. I'm a very lucky girl indeed. (: Then, there was that hesitation to share my feelings and have them out in the open. I'm so use to keeping in alot of my emotions and feelings. Up till now, I thought that was how it was suppose to be. But lately, i've realized that plan isn't working so well. Plus, i've always had this i guess you can call it fear of letting others see my weaknesses etc... But whatever, with weaknesses there is also strength.

Anyways, i initally did not want to rant for at least my first entry, but i guess i'm not that lucky when in comes to family problems. Honestly...i don't know how it got to this point. There's that saying "blood is thicker than water"; i love my family so much, but slowly we keep fighting with each other. The worst fights happen with my brother. I honestly can't take it anymore. Everyday single day, no everytime were in the same room, he always has to start something with me. I don't understand why he always has the need to agitate me. He honestly loves to make me angry. What's worst is that when i'm sad, already stressed out or in trouble, he takes pleasure in those moments. I can see him grinning as if he feels i deserve to be unhappy. What kind of sibling relationship is that?! My parents keep telling us that we only have each other. I try to get along with him, but everytime i do he ends up insulting me or something. You'd think that him being the younger one, he'd have even just the slightest bit of respect for me, but he doesn't. He has no respect for me, or my parents. Its like he has no heart; no sympathy or compassion. Although if he wants something from you, he can be so two-faced that its scary. I use to fall for it all the time. I've always wanted to believe that my brother still has some emotion towards others, but i don't believe in that anymore. I've spent too many nights crying and praying that me and him would stop fighting, and get along with each other like old times. For now, i give up. The only way for me to keep my sanity is to be as heartless towards him as he is towards me. What a loving sister i am right?

...I didn't mean to rant, but as i said i don't want to let my troubles get to me. Therefore, let's end this entry on a happy or at least happier note. hmmm, i really love soy milk...thats sweetened. omgsh that stuff is so good! lol, i'm so random. Today was a good day though. Ate pizza and chicken wings (8 or 9)...i love food, especially chicken. lol Then i went to clarisse's, and phia came too! She came late because she had a job interview, which she got. congrats again =) As usual, we all laid on the bed; shared feelings; and watched youtube videos. We watched gabe bondoc (tehe <3) ; the reaction to the mtv awards for taylor swift-so jokes; micheal jackson music videos etc... Spending time with my best friends always makes me happy. But its getting late, so ciao for now. (: